falling into bed now, it feels a million miles away in time, events and head space from this morning. Dragging myself out of bed - it felt properly like autumn - dark outside, blustery and that tiptoeing around the house - trying to be so quiet and clearly clanging everything in sight!
and it was ever so worth it - the yoga was all about the words that were shared just before the class 'sometimes you have to know when it is enough, and you must walk away' . It was about something so different, and yet has played on my mind throughout the day. to the core of my myself.
Day 9 was all about the monkey mind - travelling a million miles and nowhere. Stiff lower back and hamstrings that had me wondering whether I could get into position. Then... right at the end - a BreakthrougH - Padahustasana - and those thumbs stretched right to their limits and touched my head! I was so surprised that I looked up, lost the posture and amazingly, just slid back down into it. I had to laugh out loud and it was so good :)
buzzing through the day (powered by a trusty Starbucks skinny latte!) - I can truly say now - at the tail end - that practice, those words, and that energy has kept me going. and now, there are so many things that have made this journey of today. Unexpected, heart-wrenching, and leaving me in a place this morning I had never dreamt of.
i sat this afternoon, clutching my cup of coffee for solace as i was driven to tears by an unfolding story of the entanglements of human life. the overwhelming enormity of us as individuals smacked me in the face. realizing (again!) that everyone has a story, and sometimes there are just experiences that can and perhaps should not even be imagined.
and so... if I had to end on one thought of recognition and contemplation, it is that of humanity. of emotions and experiences and living. it is of sincerity and inspiration and a reality that can be chilling and yet unescapable. it is of moments and choices and destinies - which shape our lives.
'sometimes you have to know when it is enough, and you must walk away'
thank you to those whose presence and words and laughter shared today's living with me. it was good, and it was true. and sometimes, our lives are unexpectedly touched in simple ways that are more valuable than all the riches we could imagine.
x
'sometimes you have to know when it is enough, and you must walk away'
ReplyDelete<--- The hard part is to KNOW.
KNOWING is preconditioned what we already are (programmed by time & our past experiences).
Thus, being able to look at things with own fresh eyes helps - positive yet questioning, optimistic yet validating, committed yet ready to alter direction if signals dictate.
Not being stuck to a path which cannot be validated by ones OWN EXPERIENCE & those of other beings.
There are no absolutes save the experience of ones Own Consciousness --- To understand the best knowledge, to examine ones own EXPERIENCE, and to confirm by what others have actually experienced.
Some parts of a PATH will remain same, some will change.
The CHOICE --- the real COURAGE of a Human Consciousness --- is to act with open eyes & in light of ones own experience.
Courage is not blind-minded-ness, for blindmindedness leads to destructive consquences - direct & collateral.
COURAGE is mind-full-ness ---> Sincere Awareness, Inner Discrimination (Reality V Illusion, Delusion, Collusion), and Humane Choice.
We dont control anything (incl. outcomes)save the chance to guide our own Consciousness with Courage.
The practice of all yoga(s) - essentially tries (through physical yogas & mental yogas) to help discipline OWN mind (and its source consciousness) to try to act w COURAGE.
Keep consciousness alive w courage.
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